מָרוּד

"I do not understand how anyone can live without one small place of enchantment to turn to."

-  Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings -

"What is the use of a house if you haven't got a tolerable planet to put it on?"   

-  Henry David Thoreau -

“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” 

-C.S. Lewis-

I'm tired of this society, this earth where no one is satisfied with himself and so finds it necessary to be dissatisfied with everyone else. Where everyone is self-seeking, even and especially those self-proclaimed philanthropists, those physicians of mankind's temporal maladies. Where even the air we breathe and surround ourselves with does us harm.

I am tired of having no home, of no comfortable place. Of bearing a body that is forever aching and sore, a mind always restless and imperfectly thinking, a heart that is torn between being too malleable or too hard. 

I am tired of bearing with people who are insincere, illogical, demanding, belittling, and selfish. I am tired of witnessing the abuse exacted and suffered by others. I am tired of the uselessness, of the waste of space, the empty, incessant words.